Sorry for the long absents

Man its been awhile since I have written. I don't even know where to start. Well its 2008 and this is suppose to be my year, but it certainly doesn't feel like it. I have been playing even though I wasn't writing, but trust me there was nothing to write about, lol. I'm off my game again, don't know how or why it happened but it did. Honestly I think I but myself under a lot of pressure. I have been talking about going to the 2008 WSOP for years now, and now that 2008 is here I'm really scared. I feel like if I don't make it a lot of people are going to look down on me and think that I was just full of hot air. That scares me, A LOT!!!! I love poker, and yes the money from winning the WSOP would be one of the greatest things in the world but for me it is more about the title. I wanted to upset the poker world being some unknown amateur to take it all with nothing more then a few years practice (when I can find time ) and my gut, and now that time has started to come around I just have a lot of doubts. I don't know anymore, I really don't. I don't want to be a disappointment to my wife, or my friends, or me.